Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

I'm getting my puppy next Saturday my husband is finally going to buy one for me....yay!!! Her name is HOPE...she is a Toy Fox Terrier/ Yorkie Terrier mix.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Meet Me On Mondays

1.  What is your favorite kind of fudge?
2.  Is there snow outside your window?
3.  What is your favorite meal of the day?
4.  Do you text on your cell phone?
5.  Waffles or pancakes?

1.  I don't really like fudge but if I do eat it it has to have some white chocolate.
2. Yup & we are supposed to get 34" tomorrow again.
3. I like dinner because I sit down with my husband to eat with him at the table.
4. I rather text then talk on the phone with some people.
5. IHOP pancakes (yummy for my tummy).

Saturday, January 22, 2011

So Scared.....

As I sit here listening to the music on my playlist that reminds me of my husband I get more & more scared thinking of him leaving to Afghan in just a few months. As I type this tears run down my face just thinking of all the what if's in my head. 

He is actually at drill this weekend, so I have just had a really bummy day. It's almost 1530 (3:30PM) & I haven't done anything or ate anything but chips & dip that I made. I just don't want to do anything but have him here with me forever. I know that I'm a strong woman & can handle it but there are those weak moments that take over you, your body, your head, your soul, & everything hurts. I don't want him to go half way across the world but I know he has to it's his job but I'm scared to death. I'm afraid to get pregnant & have to do everything without him. Even though I know there are a lot of wonderful military wives/fiances/gfs how have done it or are doing it at this moment but it still scares me. 

I hate that he won't be here to celebrate our 1st year Wedding Anniversary. I know what I signed up for when I said I do on the altar in front of God, our family, & friends. This military lifestyle is hard but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. 


Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I Love My Job

So today is the forth day I get a call around 5:30AM from my boss saying that I didn't have to go to work due to the snow & sleet. I love working at a school because of the snow days. Now mother nature has decided that this should be a really bad year with snow & the cold here in Jersey, but it's a o k with me since I ge4t to stay home & sleep. Yay me!!!! LOL i just feel bad that my hubby can't stay home with me because he actually had to go to work. 

With him leaving to Afghan in a few months I just want to spend all the time that I can with him. And then yesterday he tells me that his job is sending him to Arkansas for 5 days & 6 nights for job training. I wish I could go but I would really be bored if I go since he would be in training all day while I would be stuck at the hotel. 

Anyways, since I just wrote this random post I will leave it here for now. 

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

The year was 1997.....Part 2

So in my previous post I wrote about my childhood best friend Noelis passing away.

Now we have reached the more difficult part of my life. At the beginning of the month in August we found out that my father's mother passed away. So everyone in the family took a trip to PR for the funeral. My little brother & I stood home in NJ with my mom's mother. My mother told me that the day they were supposed to come back from PR to NJ my dad went to the cemetery & asked his mother if she can take him with her in the after life.....

The widow (in the middle) my dad's father, along w/ my mom.
Crazy to think but she did grant him his wish because 2 wks after that we had a tragic loss in the family. On August 24th my life along with my mother's changed drastically all at once. 

We had been on vacation for a week so far in Honduras visiting my mother's family for the first time. It was the first time my mother had been back in 16 yrs & it was the first time for my father, me, my little brother, & cousins. My mother's sister from Maryland went also from Maryland along with my mother's mother. We had been there for a week enjoying the sun, having fun. Visiting beautiful beaches, family, & new places. My dad had rented a van so we can go everywhere & anywhere. So our "tour guide" was my mother's sister who lived in Honduras. There were always 10 passengers in the van. My father Jose, my mother Miriam, me, my little brother Anthony, & my grandma Leopoldina from Jersey. Then my aunt Mary, her son Junior & daughter Lizzie from Maryland(my uncle couldn't make it so he stood home). From Honduras we always had my aunt Norma & her 3 yr old son Jose.

This is everyone - my aunt Mary was taking the pic - along with Norma's husband all the way on the left.
The day we had the accident we were actually going to a friends house but before getting to our destination we ate at Pizza Hut around 3PM then after that hit a flea market & we went on our way. Around 5PM on Sunday, August 24th, 1997 our world turned upside down. A city bus ate the stop sign & came right towards us. My cousin Lizzie & my mom saw the bus but it was too late. The driver was drugged & drunk, plus he was late for work so he was in a hurry. 

This is what hit us & you can see the mini van in the background....

Here is a closer look.....
We lost my grandmother immediately after the bus hit us. My dad we lost in the taxi on the way to the hospital (the ambulances never came). My little brother Anthony passed away in a hospital all by himself. My aunt Norma passed away after giving her sister some phone #'s. Since the ambulance's never got to the seen taxi drivers were nice enough to take us to the hospitals but they didnt take everyone to the same one hence us being all in different places.

My cousin Junior almost passed away due to his horrible asthma & had 300 stitches in along with the inside of his face alone. He also suffered a broken right arm. 

My aunt Norma's son Jose was in really bad shape also but survived .

I was asleep during the accident so I was unconcious until the the time I was in the hospital. I woke up to nurses & Dr's trying to take off some of my clothes so they can take some X-Rays. I was bleeding from my head. I lost so much blood I almost died, & they had said I was never going to walk again.

My mom, my aunt Mary, & Lizzie were ok they just had a few bumps & bruises. It was a horrible experience, my mother had to put her mother & sister to rest on the same day in Honduras.

My grandmother & aunt Norma's funeral
While everything was happening I didn't know what was going on in the hospital & I had not seen my mother of family since Sunay until they went to pick me up on Wednesday afternoon after the funeral. To fly home 2 days later for my father & lil brother's viewing & funeral also that week.

The blue one is my brother & the other one is my dad.
Summer of 97' was vrey hard on my family but we have learned to live with it & conitnue living our lives but it does get very difficult at times when I go back & remember. I will never forget 8/24/97.....

R.I.P Daddy, Aunt Norma, & Abuela Leo

The last day they were on Earth......
Sorry if this was long but I hope you guys got to know about my life little better now.

Monday, January 10, 2011

The year was 1997....Part 1

I know I have posted a lot about my husband & my mother & never really mention if I have a father or any siblings well as much as it hurts I will explain why & everything that happened in the summer of 1997 the worst summer of anyone's life.

In May of 97' more specifically Memorial Day Weekend I was only 10 yrs old in 4th grade & it was the first time I experienced death so close to me. I went back to school that Tuesday after the long holiday weekend just to find out that my best friend Neolis had past away the day before in a car accident.

She was going to the annual Memorial Day Festival here in Newark, NJ with her family. Her godparents were also going so they told Noelis to ride with them while her parents & little brother followed behind them. As they were traveling on Highway 21 (one of the most dangerous highways in NJ) a drunk driver hit them from the side. Her parents say everything as they were behind them. She did later that night at the scene of the crash.

When I got to school that following Tuesday the principal & our teacher broke the news to us. When me mom came to pick me up I told her what had happened the day before. She got mad at me because she thought I was playing around but then she saw that I was serious & we went to me Noelis' house which was across the street from my school. When my mother say her she broke down crying too & they started talking about everything. The following day was her funeral & the entire 4th grade class attended the service. It was something very emotional & moving. My parents stood in touch with her parents for the rest of the summer until August......

I will write Part 2 when I get more time....If I can find pictures of us I will post them up.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Wordless Wednesdays

I would really love to get a puppy one day but I would really love it if I can get a Teacup Yorkie they are the cutest little things ever.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Happy Birthday To Me...

Well you guessed it from the blog title. I am 24 today, I haven't done anything yet but the day is still young. I'm going to church with my husband at 1PM and then I don't know what we are going to do from there but whatever it is I don't really care as long as I get to spend it with the ones I love!! 

My Family!!

Happy New Years!!!

I am glad that we are finally in the new year but at the same time I wish that 2010 could've stayed here forever. If we could stay in the year 2010 that would mean that my husband wouldn't be going to Afghan this year & I would stay with him for ever. I know what I signed up for & I know the territory that comes being married to a Marine. 

Anyways, sorry for my rant but I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Years & wish you all that you get what you want this year. I love you all!!