Back From Crap-Ghanistan

Hey everyone, sorry I havent blogged for a few days. But I was extrememly busy this weekend.  I had to leave for Maryland at 6AM on Saturday morning to go sign the house closing papers. I put my name down on the deed so the bank wouldn't take my aunts house away. So her boyfriend Vinnie & I have our names as the owners of the house.

Then I found out that my cousin Christian was coming home on Sunday from his deployment to Afghanistan (was there almost a yr). We did what we had to do to get ready for Sunday on Saturday. Then my cousin (hos sister Stephanie) and I got up and got ready to go get decorations at Party City. We came back home she went to the airport with her twin sister and my aunt, I stood at the house decorating and getting everything ready. Around 4:30 he came in through the door with a big smile on his face. Boy did we miss that face.

Welcome Home Soldier, Our Hero

With his niece Gia at the airport

It's tradition to hang up your boots when your back from a deployment, so that's what he did.

More than a cousin, he is a brother.

All the cousins from the East Coast

All the aunts & uncles

I was so happy that me & my mother were able to see him because we headed back to Jersey around 9:30pm that same night. We enjoyed the day with him.

Now we have him home for awhile so I can't wait to go back & see my family for Thanksgiving.

Haven't Really Talked to Him =(

So we are going into the 2nd week of my DH being away at 29 Palms & we haven't really talked except for early morning July 5th. I got in from watching the fireworks with my friend Jessica & her BF Alejandro around 10:45pm. I decided to do Insanity before bed so I did it and right after got in the shower. While I was finishing up I heard someone calling on Skype it was the hubby. I got to talk to him for about an hour and half. I was a very happy wife when I got off the phone & went to sleep. It was so good being able to hear his voice & see his sexy face.

I can wait until he is home, and according to him he told me yesterday in a quick text that he should be back in Jersey in 2 days. Which is sooner then they were supposed to come back so who really knows because I haven't spoken to him at all since.

Besides not being able to get in touch with the DH I haven't had a bad time alone. This past weekend I spent it in the pool with family & friends. I got a little color on me.

Then yesterday my best friend Kim (Partna) & Ary came over for dinner. it was the first time I cooked since Angel has been gone. Then we watched Teen Wolf while drinking a glass on wine....lol....we had a good time & I needed that because I was really missing my DH yesterday.

Hopefully I get to talk to him tonight (fingers crossed).

Hubby is at 29 Palms

He left for AT (annual training/Reservists) on Saturday. I was able to talk to him for a little on Saturday, then on Monday & didn't talk to him again until last night around 12:30am. I know it's only for 2 wks but I still miss him & he misses me too.

He left on Saturday morning to Picatinny Arsenal Army Base. I went out with my gf Jessie. we went to eat dinner at Applebee's & then went to see......

Sunday I went to my husband's cousin's house to take a dip in the pool until it started raining cats & dogs. But luckily it was only for a little while & we went right back in to keep cool.

I really didn't do anything Monday & Tuesday except hangout with my mom since she was leaving to Maryland on Tuesday night.

So I celebrated 4th of July basically by myself. I mean I went to my cousin's house for a little while and then to see the fireworks with my friend Jessie & her boyfriend. We had a good time but it was the same as previous years.

I got home around 2245 last night did some Insanity (which is going great by the way) took a quick shower right after. And thatnk God it was quick because if not I was going to miss my Skype call from my love. We talked until 0200am my time, 2300 California time. Then I had to be up at 0530 to get ready & be in at work at 0700. So I'm running on 3 1/2 hrs of sleep.

Well until next time my blogger friends.

Celebrating Our Anniversary

So since Angel got home from work late on our anniversary last Monday, we are going to celebrate it on Saturday. He said we can do anything that I want, so since the state fair starts on friday we are going to do that during the day. Then later on in the day we are going to have dinner where we had our wedding reception. It should be a good day and weekend.



Relaxing Weekend

I think the hubby & I had one of the best weekends ever in a long time. We did absolutely nothing but hangout with each other. We went to visit my mom on Friday for an hr, then came home to watch South Park on Netflix. Saturday morning we ran errands until we had to meet up with my father-in-law to look at cars for him. Then came home to relax and enjoy the rest of the day. Sunday I went and tried to go visit my friend who is in a state prison but since the guards always come up with new stupid rules I couldn't go in, so my mom and her friend went in while I waited outside. Then came home to my wonderful husband and relaxed some more. I waited until he was done playing on his Xbox and then went to Applebee's to eat dinner.

I can't complain of my weekend because we had an awesome time together even if all we did was lounge around.....lol.

Why Are Men So Insecure?

So I got a text from my husband yesterday morning & he starts telling me that he feels that there is something not right. I ask him what does he mean, things not right between us or me? Of course, like always he says its me, that this weekend while he was at drill and he called me that I wasn't paying attention & asking a lot of questions to make it seem like I was pay attention.

Like I tell him time & time again, I have been hurt before & have also been cheated on by a previous ex just like he has, so I know what that feel likes & I would never want to make him feel like that as long as I'm with him. He is the love of my life, I would go crazy if something were to ever happen between us, he is truly my soul-mate, my one & only, my prince charming in combat boots, my hero. Like I told him if he is insecure then that is something he has  to work out because I have never given him a reason to feel like I am doing him dirty.

But when he came home tonight we talked it out, had dinner, had our quality, & made love before going to sleep. It was one of the best nights we have had in awhile.

He might get on my nerves & want him to leave me alone sometimes but that man truly is my rock & wouldn't trade him for anything in the world.

I love you Mr. Camacho

Happy Late Easter

So we had a very relaxing Easter. We got up went to to church at 0011 with the father and brother-in-law Gabriel. It was such a nice service, we came back home and the guys were working on my husbands motorcycle in tue garage, while I was in the house cooking Easter lunch. They finished up we ate and the guys stayed home watching a movie while I went to visit my mother before she went to church in the afternoon to eat leftovers they her brothers in God had ate after their mass this in the morning. I went back home, the hubby and I were supposed to go watch a movie but opted to rent one instead and relax at home. Now I am dying to get out of work on time so I can go workout, go home, cook, and then write a paper for school that is due tomorrow.

Later my loves!!!!

Happy Halloween & November 1st Everyone!!

I hope everyone had a safe & fun filled Halloween weekend. I know we did, even though we got hit with the weird snow storm on Saturday. We ended getting last minute costumes to go celebrate my sister-in-laws B-Day at a club here in Elizabeth, NJ. Even though it had snowed we made the best of it. I will leave you with some of the pictures from that day. If you guys want to see the rest just go to my facebook page. My husband was Scooby Doo and I was his sexy Buccaneer....lol.....we didn't match this year as a couple.

Better Weekend Then Last Weekend

Original written date 9/26/11:


So my UTI is gone....woohoo! And Friday I went to my cousin in laws 19th B-Day party, we had a blast. Then as her birthday gift we went to the Enrique Iglesias Euphoria concert, with 2 participating artists that were on tour with him; Pitbull & Prince Royce. When we bought the txts there were only the ones in the nose bleed section but we didn't care we were gonna make the best of our time there. Luckily for us we went to buy some memorabilia from the concert and tried to see if we can find some empty seats. And jackpot we hit the mother load and found awesome seats on the lower level instead of the second upper level. We had an awesome time. Our move was definitely worth it.

Sorry this post is so short but I promise I will update you more me later.

Awesome Weekend

So I had a great weekend as you can tell fromt he title of my blog, unfortunatley I forgot my camera at home when I went to the pool on base so you wont get to see anything from Saturday but on Sunday we took pictures at Dorney Park.

So on Friday night I picked up my oldest niece so she can spend the weekend with me. I had plans so she can have a great weekend. We woke up late on Saturday, we had 30 mins to get ready pack the car up, pick up my cousin with her son, & my mom. Then we headed to the Arm Base where my husband is stationed. They have a great pool on base & of course it is so cheap for us military dependants that don't live on base. I was able to take 4 guests. We were there for a good 4 hrs. I went to the commissary bought things to make sandwiches and made our lunch. We went home just so I can get ready to go to an in-laws, after that rush back home because I had to baby sit my Goddaughter until her mama called & cancelled so my niece & I went home and watched Easy A until we knocked out.

Yesterday we got up early to get dressed & ready to pick up my Partna in Crime (Kim) & head out to Allentown, PA where Dorney Park is located. We had such an awesome time just us girls. We got to the park around 10:30 got on all the water rides and lounged by the pool to work on our tan. After all that swimming around & catching rays we got hungry so we went to the car to have some lunch & change into our dry clothes. We got ready & headed back to the park to enjoy all the roller coaster along with everythng else. We took some pictures so I will share with you.......

We had such a great time that I am going agin this coming Sunday with the hubby since he is finally coming back on Saturday from the field.....yay!!!!

 

An update on my Happiness....

I just want to thank all of you guys that responded & gave encouraging words to me on my last post. 

My husband & I spoke about everything that I was feeling, we fought, we made up & agreed to go speak to our pastor the one that married us. Since Thursday we have been so much better.  We spoke for about 3 hrs straight after my best friend left the house. I told him everything that was bothering me, how I felt like he wanted to cheat on me, & how I was afraid of loosing him & getting a divorce.

He said that there is nothing in the world that would him want to leave me. Yes that we argue but what married couple doesn't. He loves me just the way I am even if I get on his nerves sometimes just like he gets on mine. He told me that the chic means nothing she is just a friend, I mean I knew about her but they never really talked until recently that they started talking almost everyday after a couple of years that is why I felt the way I did. He says, that he would be stupid to do anything to jeopardize our marriage because he will never find anyone like me.

Remember how he had changed the password to the phone, well I told him about that & he gave it to me, he understood my reasoning. I also told him about the msgs on Facebook & he apologizes for making me feel like he is hiding something but he really isn't because he erases everything he doesn't like to keep anything old.

I'll keep you guys updated but so far after this huge bump in the road for us we are past it & I just hope better things happen from now on between us.

Again, I'm so grateful to all of you for your encouraging words. You guys have no idea how much that meant for me.

 

Not So Happy....

I don't even know how to start writing this but I am so confused with my marriage & how my husband has been acting lately. It breaks my heart to know that I'm not entirely happen at this  very moment in my marriage & with Angel. This past Saturday was our 1yr wedding anniversary but since he was at base this past weekend we went out to dinner on Sunday. All we did was talk about how I'm always fighting with him, that he never does anything for me to get mad, etc & etc. All it was him telling me how I have changed & if I don't change to how I was before we aren't going to last & how he doesn't want a failed marriage.

When he was telling me all of this all I wanted to do was just roll in to a ball & cry. I mean I know I have changed but so has he, people change in 5 yrs. I wish he was still this very affection guy like he was in the beginning & help me around the house. But like he says I'm the woman & he is not used to doing anything in the house because his mother used to do everything, so he expects me to do it too. I know that I have the wife role at home but for him to help me shouldn't be such a big deal  for us to get into an argument. I just feel like he is blaming me for all our problems & arguments, & I hate that because a marriage isn't just with one person it takes 2 people to have a marriage.

I also hate the fact that now he changed the password to his phone. Not that I want to check his phone or go through it but if he has nothing to hide why put a lock on it, I mean he gets mad everytime I ask him to use his phone for something. He used to be so sweet with me, called me beautiful everyday but now nothing, he calls her beautiful & texts to see how she is doing when he used to do that with me. When he used to get home from work he would give me the biggest hugs or when I used to get home he would drop everything he was doing to greet me. I'm lucky if I even get a kiss and a hi now.

I know that I shouldn't be going through his Facebook but I have already found a few messages btwn him & this other chic that he used to talk to all the time with from Pennsylvania. He says he meet her on line & has never meet her face to face but I don't know what to think anymore. I mean he talks to her all the time, her baby's father doesn't even know about my husband. So they keep it a secret from us that they talk because he erases all their messages & texts when I sit next to him he covers his phone so I won't see what he is doing or talking to. He was never like that before but like I say things are different.

I never thought that our relationship would come to this but I just want to cry & can't because I'm at work but it hurts to know or think that he is cheating or has thought of cheating. I don't want to think that he is unhappy with me & regrets marrying me at all, but I don't want to think that he wants to leave me......

I'm sorry this got so long but I had to get it off my chest.  

Sorry for being MIA

As some of you know my cousin Johanna Paniagua past on May 25th, 2011. If you didn't read my previous posts you can read here and here. I flew out to California on Wednesday morning, the rest of my family from Maryland flew out on  Thursday. We were all together to support my family, we weren't there for vacation but it was one of the greatest times I have ever had with my family.

The funeral was on Friday (06/03/11), it was a beautiful ceremony, viewing, & funeral.

Then in the night we went to The Walk of Fame in Hollywood to do the things that she liked to do, so we went to The Hard Rock Cafe & took so shots in in her name. After that we all back to the house we were staying at to hangout with my cousin Johnny (her lil bro) plus other friends & I ordered pizza for everyone.

On Saturday we went to our 2nd cousin Sandra's house, then to Jo's friend Amy's house & to Hollywood again with some of the parents.

I left Sunday morning & arrived at LaGuardia Airport in NY, my husband picked us up & took us home, it was such a long trip but so worth it.


Sorry this got so long but I just wanted to update all you guys. Please keep our family in your prayers because we are all going to need it.