Haven't Really Talked to Him =(

So we are going into the 2nd week of my DH being away at 29 Palms & we haven't really talked except for early morning July 5th. I got in from watching the fireworks with my friend Jessica & her BF Alejandro around 10:45pm. I decided to do Insanity before bed so I did it and right after got in the shower. While I was finishing up I heard someone calling on Skype it was the hubby. I got to talk to him for about an hour and half. I was a very happy wife when I got off the phone & went to sleep. It was so good being able to hear his voice & see his sexy face.

I can wait until he is home, and according to him he told me yesterday in a quick text that he should be back in Jersey in 2 days. Which is sooner then they were supposed to come back so who really knows because I haven't spoken to him at all since.

Besides not being able to get in touch with the DH I haven't had a bad time alone. This past weekend I spent it in the pool with family & friends. I got a little color on me.

Then yesterday my best friend Kim (Partna) & Ary came over for dinner. it was the first time I cooked since Angel has been gone. Then we watched Teen Wolf while drinking a glass on wine....lol....we had a good time & I needed that because I was really missing my DH yesterday.

Hopefully I get to talk to him tonight (fingers crossed).

Haven't Been to The Gym :(

I can't believe I'm about to say this but I actually miss going to the gym to work out. I have been so busy making up hrs at work, doing school work, and doing the wife/housewife duties that I haven't been able to go workout at the gym since they close at 9pm. I'm having gym withdrawal.....lol.....so after this week an after I come back from South Carolina I will start up Phase 2 of Jamie Eason's 12 Week Trainer again since I've slacked with making up hrs. But I haven't gained a single lb., but have lost a total of 15lbs since I decided to change my life forever.

I couldn't be prouder of myself and my husband is so proud of me too and that just motivates me even more.

Why Are Men So Insecure?

So I got a text from my husband yesterday morning & he starts telling me that he feels that there is something not right. I ask him what does he mean, things not right between us or me? Of course, like always he says its me, that this weekend while he was at drill and he called me that I wasn't paying attention & asking a lot of questions to make it seem like I was pay attention.

Like I tell him time & time again, I have been hurt before & have also been cheated on by a previous ex just like he has, so I know what that feel likes & I would never want to make him feel like that as long as I'm with him. He is the love of my life, I would go crazy if something were to ever happen between us, he is truly my soul-mate, my one & only, my prince charming in combat boots, my hero. Like I told him if he is insecure then that is something he has  to work out because I have never given him a reason to feel like I am doing him dirty.

But when he came home tonight we talked it out, had dinner, had our quality, & made love before going to sleep. It was one of the best nights we have had in awhile.

He might get on my nerves & want him to leave me alone sometimes but that man truly is my rock & wouldn't trade him for anything in the world.

I love you Mr. Camacho

Happy Late Easter

So we had a very relaxing Easter. We got up went to to church at 0011 with the father and brother-in-law Gabriel. It was such a nice service, we came back home and the guys were working on my husbands motorcycle in tue garage, while I was in the house cooking Easter lunch. They finished up we ate and the guys stayed home watching a movie while I went to visit my mother before she went to church in the afternoon to eat leftovers they her brothers in God had ate after their mass this in the morning. I went back home, the hubby and I were supposed to go watch a movie but opted to rent one instead and relax at home. Now I am dying to get out of work on time so I can go workout, go home, cook, and then write a paper for school that is due tomorrow.

Later my loves!!!!

Going Down South In A Few Weeks

So our best friend Andy graduates on May 3rd, 2012 at Ft. Jackson, SC so I finally convinced my husband to take a road trip down there to see him graduate. So I took the liberty of doing everything myself and booked the Hotel, rental car, & ordered a banner to show support. So on Wednesday May 2nd we are heading down south. We are leaving after my husband gets home from work. I will drive the first few hrs and then we will switch around, I hope we make it to Ft. Jackson to his 9AM graduation ceremony. Then we are going to stay for the night at the hotel I booked and leave the following day just to give us time to rest so the trip wont be so tiring. Andy won't be able to come back home with us because he has to go report to his unit in Louisianna where he will be stationed for the next 4 years. I love the fact that he is getting stationed at Ft Polk because it gives us a reason to go and visit LA.

Well until next time guys!!

I've Been MIA Once Again.....

Hey everyone, I'm sorry that I have been gone for a while, but I promise I will be back on the regular. The holidays came and went, so did my 25th Birthday on the 2nd of Jan. I can't believe that I didn't post anything on here to update you guys on how I'm doing. Well I am going to school again, my first day was on the Jan 17th. I'm attending online classes at Ashford University for Education Studies. I will finsih my first course on Monday and I am getting an A so far. I'm supposed to finish with my Bachelors Degree in Dec of 2015.

Our friend Andy that went w/ me & our family to Parris Island to pick up my husband from boot just graduated from boot camp himself. But he couldn't go into the Marine Corps so he went Army. My husband & I were unable to go to his graduation because it was right smak in the middle of the week. Since I just started at my job I still didn't have personal days & if he doesn't work he doesn't get paid. So what we decided to do was save money  go to his AIT graduation in Ft. Jackson, SC in May.  

This past Tuesday was Valentine's Day. My husband are not really big on the whole holiday, but I decided to make a special dinner for the both of us and enjoy in some desserts that I also made. 

Steak with garlic potatoes along with shrimp seasoned in basil, garlic, & red pepper flakes, cooked in white wine.

Chocolate covered strawberries & cupcakes.

Well I will finish here because I have to finish my quiz for school.

Enjoy the rest of your night everyone.

Our First Thanksgiving At Our Place

Well as you guess got from the title we had Thanksgiving at our place this year. We finally have a big enough place to have people over to enjoy the holiday. We had 16 people in total all together, I was running around like a kitchen without a head all week & working. But in the end it was all worth it, just to be able to spend Thanksgiving with my husband, my mother, & the rest of the family. We even had a surprise come from NC. My husbands cousin came for Thanksgiving and his wife went to Florida to see his family. 


All in all it was a great day with a lot of ups and downs but we loved have Thanksgiving at our place for the first time. 

Almost That Time Again......

for the Maine Corps Ball. Ours is this Saturday the 18th, & I am so excited to go because now this year my hubby has friends in his company & gets along with most of them. Now that means I will get to meet wives, and hopefully make new friends. I'm also excited because we are staying at the hotel and I called the desk for a reservation & asked them if they can do something special for us since we didnt get to do anything for our 1 year wedding anniversary since the hubby was away training. They said yes & that we will be surprised when we go to our room.....I can't wait to see what they have in stored for us.

I will keep everyone updated.

Happy Halloween & November 1st Everyone!!

I hope everyone had a safe & fun filled Halloween weekend. I know we did, even though we got hit with the weird snow storm on Saturday. We ended getting last minute costumes to go celebrate my sister-in-laws B-Day at a club here in Elizabeth, NJ. Even though it had snowed we made the best of it. I will leave you with some of the pictures from that day. If you guys want to see the rest just go to my facebook page. My husband was Scooby Doo and I was his sexy Buccaneer....lol.....we didn't match this year as a couple.

Things Are Looking Up

I know a few of you ladies know what was going on btwn my husband and I back in the summer. We'll just to bring you guys up to date here are a few msgs btwn my husband and I that can let you know we are great. We no longer fight about stupid petty things or we don't go through each others phones or personal things. We have been good for the past month or so because before that we where fighting constantly and it was really getting to us, it come to the point that I couldn't say or do anything with out having him blow up and vis versa. But I leave you with these images.



Surprise Homecoming from My Husband!

So as most of you know my husband has been out in the field & I was supposed to go pick him up this past Sunday morning. Well, on Friday night I was talking to him & he told me that they extended his stay for a night. He had just gotten to the base that night from training at Ft. Drum in NY. I was telling him how much it sucked but that I couldn't wait to go pick him up on Sunday morning. I didn't know why but you know that Marine Corps always have a change of plans so I didn't think anything of it.  

My mom stood over my house Friday night because her whole block lost power do to the heat wave, so after I finished talking to my hubby we went to sleep around 12 or so. Around 8 in the morning I hear a knock at my door & I hear Hope barking (she only does that when there are people at the door) like crazy. So the Hubby surprised me by waking up to him knocking at the door that morning. Best wake up call ever. Like I said before I was going to pick him up at the base (Picatinny Aresenal) on Sunday but my Bro-In-Law was in on it and brought him to me at 8AM. I was supposed to go to the pool but I completely changed my mind about that.....lol

I love you baby having you at the door Saturday morning was the best surprise EVER!!!

Happy Birthday Mr Camacho & 100th Post!

Today is my husband's 27th birthday & I can't be with him to clebrate yet thanks to the good ol' Marine Corps. He is still out in the field & won't be back until Saturday. Thank God it is this week because Admin had messed up the bus contracts & he had told me that he might have to stay for another week because the contract said they had to be picked up the 29th instead of the 22nd. I swear when he told me my heart sank, but I'm so happy that it was all worked out & I get to pick him up on Saturday & celebrate his Birthday.

I love you hunny I hope you make the best out of today with your brothers in arms!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS MY 100TH POST!!!!

When I started this blog back in October of 2010 I didn't think that I would have written so much, & poured out my heart for everyone to read, let alone for me to have 32 followers. I appreaciate everyone of you that read what I have to say.

I'm so happy that I have become friends & have come to get to know so many Military Wives. I even meet a great friend from the bloggy world. She even came out to my place for dinner & have a few laughs. We have become so close & I am glad that I was able to find a great friend in her.

The blog world has been so incredibly supportive when I was having problems with my husband (which we are great by the way) & gave me such encouraging words. I will continue to write & read all the blog post that each & everyone of you write.

If you have read all 100 of my posts thank you!

What's Your Song? Link Up Wk #21

I'm back to the link up!! I'm so sorry that I haven't participated in the past few weeks, but I have had a lot of things going on lately. But now I'm back with full force. Everyone should go and link up with Amber from Goodnight Moon. 

The song that I choose for this week is Long Distance by Bruno Mars. Since I still have 10 days until I see him again. I know that is a little bit of time compared to a lot of you guys out there but we have been going through a lot & I just need him close to me in his arms where I feel safe & secure again. 


I LOVE YOU BABY, HURRY HOME!!

My 4th of July Weekend Recap

Hey bloggy world!!! Sorry I haven'twritten for a while but I have been reading all your blogs. So I had a great 4th of July, we were supposed to go to the go to the NJ State Fair on Friday but ended up knocking with the hubby while watching a movie on the couch.

Saturday we went to Staten Island so babes can get numbers for the payments he will be making for when he buys a bike. He is so excited to get a motorcycle. But just his luck the motorcycle store was closed for the holiday weekend. Went to another motorcycle mall here in Belleville, NJ actually only 5 mins away & got all the info he needed. We should've just went there in the first place...lol. But it was a good adventure & time in the car going to Staten Island. 

Later on that night my goddaughter came to sleep over while her mommy went out on a date with her boyfriend. We were getting a lil practice with having kids because she is only 6  months. We had a good time playing with her & so did our puppy Hope.

Sunday our goddaughter was picked up & we just had a relaxing rainy day at home. We tried to go see Bad Teacher but the movie theater was too crowded & couldn't find a parking so we just went home. We got all our stuff ready for the lake on Monday.

Yesterday we got up around 5AM to be at the SIL house at 5:30AM so we can be on our way to the lake. We had to wait until 8AM to get in to the park & until 10AM. We had a great time, with family, food, music, friends & the sun (which by the way I got burned :(.....it hurts). We came back home early enough to rest & get ready to go see the fireworks at the local high school's football field. We took the puppy & she was terrified I felt so bad for the lil miss.

Sorry it got so long but I haven't updated you guys in a while.

PS~Things with the hubby & I are great, & this time apart that he will be out in the field for 2 1/2 wks will just make us stronger.



Not So Happy....

I don't even know how to start writing this but I am so confused with my marriage & how my husband has been acting lately. It breaks my heart to know that I'm not entirely happen at this  very moment in my marriage & with Angel. This past Saturday was our 1yr wedding anniversary but since he was at base this past weekend we went out to dinner on Sunday. All we did was talk about how I'm always fighting with him, that he never does anything for me to get mad, etc & etc. All it was him telling me how I have changed & if I don't change to how I was before we aren't going to last & how he doesn't want a failed marriage.

When he was telling me all of this all I wanted to do was just roll in to a ball & cry. I mean I know I have changed but so has he, people change in 5 yrs. I wish he was still this very affection guy like he was in the beginning & help me around the house. But like he says I'm the woman & he is not used to doing anything in the house because his mother used to do everything, so he expects me to do it too. I know that I have the wife role at home but for him to help me shouldn't be such a big deal  for us to get into an argument. I just feel like he is blaming me for all our problems & arguments, & I hate that because a marriage isn't just with one person it takes 2 people to have a marriage.

I also hate the fact that now he changed the password to his phone. Not that I want to check his phone or go through it but if he has nothing to hide why put a lock on it, I mean he gets mad everytime I ask him to use his phone for something. He used to be so sweet with me, called me beautiful everyday but now nothing, he calls her beautiful & texts to see how she is doing when he used to do that with me. When he used to get home from work he would give me the biggest hugs or when I used to get home he would drop everything he was doing to greet me. I'm lucky if I even get a kiss and a hi now.

I know that I shouldn't be going through his Facebook but I have already found a few messages btwn him & this other chic that he used to talk to all the time with from Pennsylvania. He says he meet her on line & has never meet her face to face but I don't know what to think anymore. I mean he talks to her all the time, her baby's father doesn't even know about my husband. So they keep it a secret from us that they talk because he erases all their messages & texts when I sit next to him he covers his phone so I won't see what he is doing or talking to. He was never like that before but like I say things are different.

I never thought that our relationship would come to this but I just want to cry & can't because I'm at work but it hurts to know or think that he is cheating or has thought of cheating. I don't want to think that he is unhappy with me & regrets marrying me at all, but I don't want to think that he wants to leave me......

I'm sorry this got so long but I had to get it off my chest.  

Happy 1 Year Anniversary to Us!!!

As you can tell from my title yesterday was my 1 yr Wedding Anniversary & on Monday it was our 5 yr anniversary. I can't believe that this year has gone by so quick. 

I have been so blessed to have such a wonderful caring husband. I couldn't have asked for anyone better, he is truly my best friend, my soul-mate, & my one & only. I'm sure that my father had something to do with him & I seeing each other that night in the Walgreens parking lot....hehehehe. He spoke to the big man upstairs to send me a great man to take care of me & he did his job.

Unfortunately, we are not going to spend it together because the good ole, Marine Corps decided he had to go train THIS weekend. But he said he is going to make it up to me so I hope that happens...lol. I'm getting a good taste of  how our future is going to be while he is in the USMC, even though we couldn't celebrate together this anniversary, I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world & hopefully we get to celebrate many many more anniversaries together. 

I LOVE YOU MR. CAMACHO!!!!


06/11/10 FOREVER & ALWAYS

Horrible News

So at exactly 1PM today I got one of the worst news ever, my aunt Mary from Maryland called me to tell me that my cousin Johanna Paniagua passed away this morning.

I have been in shock, disbelief,  etc. since I found out.

I never told you guys the story of what happened to her but I guess this is a good a time as any.....

Back in February 11' my identical twin cousins Johanna & Cindy were involved in a horrible accident. Cindy was driving & Johanna was the passenger....according to the Cindy there day started off like any other day, they went to school, then to work, & then Cindy wanted to go to the gym but Jo was too tired to go but since she didn't want her sister to go alone she went.

Cindy asmits that she was speeding, while Jo was sleeping & in an instant she got extremely tired & fell asleep behind the wheel. Resulting in her hitting a tree. Cindy left the scene unharmed but Jo was that lucky. She had 3 broken ribs, a collapsed lung, 2 broken vertabre in her spinal, & the list goes on and on. She had to use a halo box & this Saturday it was finally taken off, but she started to have pain & she couldn't feel part of her body for some reason.

My family is thinking that this is some type of mal-practice but we won't know until we get the autopsy results. Then I will have to fly out to California for the funeral. 

I just ask that you keep my family in your prayers because it is going to be a hard few days, weeks, months, for us. 

Left to Right; Johnny (Lil Bro), Johanna, Cindy, & their friend Simon

Johnny & Johanna

Cindy & Johanna (red hat) on happier days

RIP Johanna Paniagua Oct 9th, 1985 to May 25th, 2011
 We love you & you will always be with us in our hearts!!!

My Weekend In Maryland

I had an awesome weekend with my family, to bad my hubby had drill this weekend so he couldn't go (boo!!!).

Anyways, my mom & I left for our road trip on Thursday night. We were going to Maryland for my cousin's graduation from The University of Maryland. She graduated with a Bachelors in Criminology & Criminal Justice. I'm extremely proud of her for completing her dream.

The ceremnoy was awesome, I took lots of pictures, then we went to the house to set up for her party in the night. We partied like there was no tomorrow cause according to some people Saturday was supposed to be the end of the world so we did it up until 3AM.

Since we didn't die on Saturday the whole family just lounged around all day recovering from our hangovers just talking & joking around.

Sunday I had plans with my husband bake in NJ but since my mother decided to change our leaving time from 1PM to 5PM those plans went down the drain. I was so pissed but it all went away when I saw my husband that night.

 

Now I leave you with a picture of my mom, me & the graduate.

 

 

Im so proud of you lil sis!!!! You did it!

To Leave or Not To Leave......?

So I have been playing around with the idea of leaving my job at the preschool for a job in my career field which is Medical Billing. I went to school for this & worked in my field for about only 1 year after I graduated school. For some reason or another I was fired unjustly. I was on unemplyment only for 3 months until I found this great job that I am truly greatful for in every way. I love my co-workers, my job, my boss, my hours, the kids, etc. The only downfall is the fact that we don't know if we are going to have a job in the summer because our governor Chris Christie is trying to cut all funds from the preschools saying they are unnecessary & I won't ever get a raise.

My husband & I actually started talking about this situacion on Saturday & he was bringing up a lot of good points. He knows very well that I love waking up to go to work everyday but we recently found a new place & have to buy furniture so that is holding us back for another 2 months on buying my husbands car. We can't continue with the 1 car situacion even though we make it work. So we decided that I would start looking for a new job but if I don't find anything by the end of July I will continue working at the school until the follow summer. 

Wish my luck in this new journey that I am about to embark on now. 

PS~ I started looking on craisglist.com for  Medical Billing jobs & I already found 2 that would pay me btwn $17-$20 starting, that is waaaaaaaaay more then what I'm making now ($12.56). I'm gonna see if I talk to my boss today & start sending out resumes after I fix it.    

 

Wordless Wednesday & We are moving!!!!

So we finally found a place, we have been loking for a new place to move for the past 2 months. I wanted to move to closer to our jobs but weren't finding anything good or in our price range. So on Monday my husband picked up my good friend Diego from work to come over our place & told us about his friend from church that is renting out the 1st floor from her house in Newark (where we live). It's a 2 bdrm w/ everything included except electricity which won't be much to pay. The best part is that we can keep our puppy because she has a big puppy of her own.  When we are finally settled in the new place in June I will show you all pictures.

I know it's not so wordless but I'm just excited!!!!