Wordless Wednesday

I miss my husband, I want him back. Even if it's just to watch him play on the Xbox 360 or his PS3 but as long as he would be here at home with me. 

Wordless Wednesday

I can't wait until I get my IPhone because my T-Mobile My Touch is really getting on my nerves.

 

I've lacked

on my weight loss & working out goals...but now that Angel is leaving for AT (Annual Training) I will have more time for myself & will be able to do the P90X everyday & my Zumba fitness (which reminds me: Chelsey I haven't forgot about your dvd copies) as well.

I've lost 3 lbs though but I need to lose way more weight to look great for my friends wedding in October.

Now that I will have the place to myself it will be me time.

But when my husband is home I love to cuddle him & hangout as much as I can so I slack on the excercising, but I will be on my grind starting today & the rest of the time until October.

 

My 4th of July Weekend Recap

Hey bloggy world!!! Sorry I haven'twritten for a while but I have been reading all your blogs. So I had a great 4th of July, we were supposed to go to the go to the NJ State Fair on Friday but ended up knocking with the hubby while watching a movie on the couch.

Saturday we went to Staten Island so babes can get numbers for the payments he will be making for when he buys a bike. He is so excited to get a motorcycle. But just his luck the motorcycle store was closed for the holiday weekend. Went to another motorcycle mall here in Belleville, NJ actually only 5 mins away & got all the info he needed. We should've just went there in the first place...lol. But it was a good adventure & time in the car going to Staten Island. 

Later on that night my goddaughter came to sleep over while her mommy went out on a date with her boyfriend. We were getting a lil practice with having kids because she is only 6  months. We had a good time playing with her & so did our puppy Hope.

Sunday our goddaughter was picked up & we just had a relaxing rainy day at home. We tried to go see Bad Teacher but the movie theater was too crowded & couldn't find a parking so we just went home. We got all our stuff ready for the lake on Monday.

Yesterday we got up around 5AM to be at the SIL house at 5:30AM so we can be on our way to the lake. We had to wait until 8AM to get in to the park & until 10AM. We had a great time, with family, food, music, friends & the sun (which by the way I got burned :(.....it hurts). We came back home early enough to rest & get ready to go see the fireworks at the local high school's football field. We took the puppy & she was terrified I felt so bad for the lil miss.

Sorry it got so long but I haven't updated you guys in a while.

PS~Things with the hubby & I are great, & this time apart that he will be out in the field for 2 1/2 wks will just make us stronger.



An update on my Happiness....

I just want to thank all of you guys that responded & gave encouraging words to me on my last post. 

My husband & I spoke about everything that I was feeling, we fought, we made up & agreed to go speak to our pastor the one that married us. Since Thursday we have been so much better.  We spoke for about 3 hrs straight after my best friend left the house. I told him everything that was bothering me, how I felt like he wanted to cheat on me, & how I was afraid of loosing him & getting a divorce.

He said that there is nothing in the world that would him want to leave me. Yes that we argue but what married couple doesn't. He loves me just the way I am even if I get on his nerves sometimes just like he gets on mine. He told me that the chic means nothing she is just a friend, I mean I knew about her but they never really talked until recently that they started talking almost everyday after a couple of years that is why I felt the way I did. He says, that he would be stupid to do anything to jeopardize our marriage because he will never find anyone like me.

Remember how he had changed the password to the phone, well I told him about that & he gave it to me, he understood my reasoning. I also told him about the msgs on Facebook & he apologizes for making me feel like he is hiding something but he really isn't because he erases everything he doesn't like to keep anything old.

I'll keep you guys updated but so far after this huge bump in the road for us we are past it & I just hope better things happen from now on between us.

Again, I'm so grateful to all of you for your encouraging words. You guys have no idea how much that meant for me.

 

Not So Happy....

I don't even know how to start writing this but I am so confused with my marriage & how my husband has been acting lately. It breaks my heart to know that I'm not entirely happen at this  very moment in my marriage & with Angel. This past Saturday was our 1yr wedding anniversary but since he was at base this past weekend we went out to dinner on Sunday. All we did was talk about how I'm always fighting with him, that he never does anything for me to get mad, etc & etc. All it was him telling me how I have changed & if I don't change to how I was before we aren't going to last & how he doesn't want a failed marriage.

When he was telling me all of this all I wanted to do was just roll in to a ball & cry. I mean I know I have changed but so has he, people change in 5 yrs. I wish he was still this very affection guy like he was in the beginning & help me around the house. But like he says I'm the woman & he is not used to doing anything in the house because his mother used to do everything, so he expects me to do it too. I know that I have the wife role at home but for him to help me shouldn't be such a big deal  for us to get into an argument. I just feel like he is blaming me for all our problems & arguments, & I hate that because a marriage isn't just with one person it takes 2 people to have a marriage.

I also hate the fact that now he changed the password to his phone. Not that I want to check his phone or go through it but if he has nothing to hide why put a lock on it, I mean he gets mad everytime I ask him to use his phone for something. He used to be so sweet with me, called me beautiful everyday but now nothing, he calls her beautiful & texts to see how she is doing when he used to do that with me. When he used to get home from work he would give me the biggest hugs or when I used to get home he would drop everything he was doing to greet me. I'm lucky if I even get a kiss and a hi now.

I know that I shouldn't be going through his Facebook but I have already found a few messages btwn him & this other chic that he used to talk to all the time with from Pennsylvania. He says he meet her on line & has never meet her face to face but I don't know what to think anymore. I mean he talks to her all the time, her baby's father doesn't even know about my husband. So they keep it a secret from us that they talk because he erases all their messages & texts when I sit next to him he covers his phone so I won't see what he is doing or talking to. He was never like that before but like I say things are different.

I never thought that our relationship would come to this but I just want to cry & can't because I'm at work but it hurts to know or think that he is cheating or has thought of cheating. I don't want to think that he is unhappy with me & regrets marrying me at all, but I don't want to think that he wants to leave me......

I'm sorry this got so long but I had to get it off my chest.  

Happy 1 Year Anniversary to Us!!!

As you can tell from my title yesterday was my 1 yr Wedding Anniversary & on Monday it was our 5 yr anniversary. I can't believe that this year has gone by so quick. 

I have been so blessed to have such a wonderful caring husband. I couldn't have asked for anyone better, he is truly my best friend, my soul-mate, & my one & only. I'm sure that my father had something to do with him & I seeing each other that night in the Walgreens parking lot....hehehehe. He spoke to the big man upstairs to send me a great man to take care of me & he did his job.

Unfortunately, we are not going to spend it together because the good ole, Marine Corps decided he had to go train THIS weekend. But he said he is going to make it up to me so I hope that happens...lol. I'm getting a good taste of  how our future is going to be while he is in the USMC, even though we couldn't celebrate together this anniversary, I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world & hopefully we get to celebrate many many more anniversaries together. 

I LOVE YOU MR. CAMACHO!!!!


06/11/10 FOREVER & ALWAYS