Best Video Ever

I know this is a little long but I love how he speaks about Military Spouses....I stole this video from Allie over @ My Marine & Me who got it from The Ramblings of A Marine Wife

Merry Christmas!!!

So we ended up not going to Maryland after all, we stood here in NJ. We ended up going over my mom's house & I cooked to invite everyone over to eat. I went all out, I made 2 pans of lasagna, a ham, mashed potatoes, mini croissants, and a cake for desert. Everyone loved it (not to toot my own horn but tooooot toooot...lol) & they are all coming over to eat the lefts overs. 

I really did get mad yesterday because we didn't go to Maryland but I'm over it & we had a great time today. 

My husband made me open my gift because he wanted to see my reaction & I loved it. He gave me a laptop so we can skype when he leaves for deployment next year. He also loved his gift too because I got him the Kinect that he wanted so bad. Now I just wonder what he is going to give me for my Birthday (Jan 2nd). 

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!!!!

Sometimes I hate the holidays...

Don't get me wrong, I love to spend time with my husband & our family but I just hate the way that things are between my mother & Angel. 

My mother never really liked Angel until we went to Parris Island to pick him up from boot. She was so proud of him & everything. But then we got married & since he is a reservist she saw that he was having a hard time finding a job. We lived with her for 3 months (they were the longest 3 months ever) after we got married. He worked on base for a little while & then they didn't have funds to keep him there. The way that things are with the economy everyone was having a hard time finding a job & it sucked that he was one of those people. 

I always hate being in the middle of everything because my mom would complain to me about Angel & he would complain to me about my mom. Obviously I wouldn't relay what they said about each other to them because that would make them hate each other. 

Now, I'm having a hard time because we are leaving to Maryland tonight to spend X-Mas eve with my mom's side of the family & are coming back on Saturday (X-Mas Day) to spend it with with his father & siblings. Even though my husband doesn't want to go he is going just to please me really. But in reality he wants to stay here in NJ with them, my mom, & me in our place celebrating all together, because he is deploying in a few months he wants the holidays to be special. He says that God forbid & he doesn't come back it witll be the last time he can be with them for X-Mas.

My mom is ok with leaving today but wants to come back on Sunday. So when I called her & told her about the idea she just had to put in her two cents by saying, "Ok that's fine but since we always have to do what Angel says we are coming back on Saturday instead of Sunday but that's fine let's do it." Uggghhhhhh, it's things like that that they say that piss me off sometimes or get me upset because I wish they would have a better relationship. I mean he is my HUSBAND & she is my MOTHER so I can't take sides. She is the only person I have left from my immediate since I've been 10 yrs old. After the accident(I'll explain later in another post) we had in back in 97'.

Well, let me get ready to leave my job & head home, wish me luck for these Holidays.

Merry Christmas everyone, I hope you have a great time with your loved ones.

 

My Results Came Out Negative!!!

Ok so I know you guys have noooo idea what I'm talking about so I will start from the beginning. I have always had irregular periods, sometimes it can last about 3-4 days, a month, or even 2 months. I have never had a regular cycle, so I became anemic after some time since I always had heavy bleeding. So about a year & a half ago I went to the Gyno for a regular Pap Smear exam, thinking nothing of it, I went in got it done & came back 2 wks later for my results. Thankfully Angel was with me at the time when I got the results because they weren't good at all. The Dr. sat me & him down (he never missed one of my Dr.'s appts) & she told me that I had HPV=Human papillomavirus. I know that it wasn't sexually transmitted because a wk before Angel had gotten tested for all types of STD's & everything came out fine. I was a virgen when I started dating Angel so there was no way I got it from someone else either. The worst part about it was when she told me, "you have a severe case of cancerous cells & if you don't take care of it now you will have cervical cancer in less then 3 months" that is when Angel & I both looked at each other in shock, fear, you name it we felt it.

The Dr. told me I had to make a decision right then & there, she asked me if I wanted to freeze the part of my cervix that had the cancerous cells (it wasn't promised w/ this procedure that it wouldn't sspread) or have a sme day surgery to take out part of the cervix? I choose the surgery because it was safer & for sure that she can take out all the cancerous cells. So I was in her office Monday & that same week (Wednesday) I was on the operating table. Angel & my mother waited in the lobby until I was done with everything. A week later I had to go back to the Dr to get my results & to tell me how everythng came out. She told me the surgery was a success, she froze the area around the part that part that she cut out from my cervix just to be safe so the cells wouldn't spread. Now all I had to do was come in to see her every 6 months for a follow up.

This all happened in March of 09' & 6 months later it was the last wk of November & it was time for my Pap Smear. Now the only thing bad about this was that the day that Angel left for boot (Dec 7th, 2009) was the day that I would get my results and he couldn't be there for me. He called me before getting on the plane to SC & told me that I better let him know the results in a letter no matter what the news were, & I did. But lucky everything came out fine, it was mildly abnormal but nothing to get worked up about.

The next time I had to get another test was this June that Monday that we came back from our Jamaican Honeymoon & she gave me the same results as the previous check up. Two months after that we went to her office again because I really thought I was pregnant. I got blood work donw so it can be acurate but it came out negative. So this past Monday (Dec 13th) I had a routine Pap Smear & I went for my results yesterday. Everything came out fine it is negative. Now the next step is to try & conceive, so my Dr gave me 3 different pills to help us conceive since she knows Angel will be deploying next May & since I am so abnormal (I haven't had my menstrual cycle in 2 months & again not pregnant) with my period still she is giving us everything she can to help the conceiving process.

So we are going to get started on the whole baby making mission asap...lol....wish us luck. I really do want to have a little bundle of joy when Angel deploys so when he comes back he will meet our baby for the first time.

The Holidays

I seriously love the Holidays. It is such a beautiful time of year to be with the ones tha you love but it is also very hard especially if you have lost family members like my husband & I have in our life. Later on I will post exactly how, why, & who it is that we lost that makes the holidays just a little bit hard for us. Those topics need a post of their own so you guys can fully understand.

But on another note, I'm so excited that we are traveling south to spend Christmas wth my mother's side of the family in Silver Spring, Maryland. Incase I don't write until after Christmas I wish everyone one a safe & happy holiday.

Wordless Wednesday

People should really proof read their signs before posting them all through town.....lmao

 

Meet Me On Monday

Questions: 1.  How do you order your steak?
2.  Are you superstitious about anything?
3.  Who is your best friend (not including your spouse)?
4.  When is the last time your wore a dress (for the guys...a suit)?
5.  Do you have any trips scheduled?

Answers:

1.  Medium well or well done just like I did last night at Outback Steakhouse.

2. Not really but I do believe in Karma.

3. Kim who was my Maid of Honor at my wedding.

This is my sister from anotha mista...I love this girl!!!

4. Nov 6th, 2010 to the 235th Marine Corps Birthday Ball you can see pics here.

5. We are planning to go to Maryland for our Xmas vacation (well at least for the weekend). And hopefully we can go somewhere tropical to celebrate our 1 yr wedding anniversary early since the hubby will be deployed for it so we want to do it early.



He Dropped the D Word

So as you can tell from the title of this post, my husband told me he is going to be deploying in 2011. I mean I know he told me that he had volunteered about 2 months ago when he was last in drill but I didn't think they would actually pick him to go this time around. I know that he has to go, & I also know what he signed up for when we got married. So I know exactly what I was getting myself into with this whole military lifestyle. 

Angel left for drill this weekend & was able to come home every night to sleep (which I loved) then in the morning I would take him to base & he would get a ride home with one of his fellow Marine. So when he came home last night he gave me a great big hug, kissed me & said, "I Love You" which I of course said it back to him. He said get ready because I'm going to take you out to eat. But before I was able to do anything he said that he had to tell me something. So I sat down he took my hands & said, "I'm leaing for deployment in about 5 months to Afghan." after that my heart sank. Everything hit me like a ton of bricks & all I could ask him was;  "for how long & when did they tell you" while I had tears streaming down my cheek. He said that they told him that day while they had down time during drill.

So I got ready & we left to have dinner. I was quiet the whole ride to the restaurant & during dinner until we started talking about everything & he got me out of the trance that I was kind of in from the moment that he told me. He told me not to stress myself about it and that he is going to be safe & will come back to me. Angel wants me to be pregnant by the time he leaves so we are going to try our best in these 5 months that he is still stateside to try & conceive. That way when he comes back in 2012 he can meet our lil bundle of joy. But we are taking everything day by day. I'm going to enjoy the time I have with him until the day he has to leave.

I am ok today but I know that I will have my days of breaking down.

My Blog Makeover



As you can all see my blog has gotten a wonderful makeover. I really have to thank Brea over @ Utterly Chaotic Designs she is so much fun to work with & is so talented so please go check out her blog. I told her what colors & what I wanted. When she sent me the first draft I was so amamzed at what great job she did. I was so happy with the way taht everything came out. I even have a client for her that fell in love with my blog makeover....lol. So if anyone wants to spruce up their blog she is really the person to go to, she gives military family discounts also but her prices are so reasonable you can't pass up the deal.

Thank you so much Brea I love my blog now even more, even my husband liked it. Like I told you in the emails I love my design & I really appreciate you doing this for me.

One Year Ago Today

I can't believe that a year ago today I was balling my eyes out because my fiance had left been picked up by his recruiter at 4:30AM. I really couldn't sleep at all that night . We had spent the whole day together on Sunday. That same Saturday before he left, we had his going away party. I decided to spend his last night in NJ with him. I really didn't get a lot of sleep I just kept looking at him, crying, & hugging him. Then around 4AM his alarm turns on & all I can think is "No it's time for him to get ready, I can't take this feeling. I don't want to be without my fiance for 3 months......" His family is all awake by this time time too. Even his best friend Andy came by to say "see you later". At exactly 4:30AM his recruiter pulled up to the house after I cried in his arms, hugged him, told him I loved him, & that I would miss him; off he went to embark on his new journey to becoming a US Marine @ Parris Island, SC where many of his fellow brothers in arms have gone through the same ordeal as he was about to start.

 How time flies, those 3 months were one of the hardest moments I ever went through in my life but I can truly say it made me appreciate my husband more, it helped strengthen our relationship, & it helped me to never take him for granted.


I love you Mr. Camacho you are truly the best thing to ever happen to me!!!!

Award!!!



So I know this is a month late (opps) but I have been meaning to thank Ines over @ The Few, The Proud, The Wife for giving me this award. I have just been so busy lately that I havent even had time for myself let alone get on my blog. Another thing that doesn't really let me post anything is that our friend Andy took his laptop home & I dont have one.....yet (hoping to get one from the husband on Xmas or my B-Day).  But anyways lets get on with accepting this award.

10 things I like

1) I love sleeping on my husband's side of the bed when he is away!

2) I love shopping when there are great sales.

3) I love romantic comedies.  

4) I don't know how I managed being without a DVR for so long.

5) I really like free movie Tuesdays.

6) Love finding new blogs & following them.

7) I love being a Marine Wife.

8) Love drinking a Tall White Chocolate Mocha from Starbucks during the winter.

 9) Favorite holilday is Christmas by far

10) Love spending time with my family as much as I can, we are all crazy but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.

Ok so I know I'm supposed to give this award to 10 other bloggy friends but I really have to get back to work & can't stay on much longer. I will do it soon though I promise.